ROAD TO WORDS AND MOMENTS BY AMMARAH ARIF

We both were staring at each other. 

She deeply closed her eyes in embarrassment.

DURR-E-MIHARA!' There was a strange Harmony in her name. She opened her eyes and saw me with a scariness. 

Her desert burnt-like eyes made me even more restless.

Slowly her face was soaked again with tears. 

She moved my hand from her left hand and tried to take a step back, but before her leg slipped again...

I held her by the shoulders...

'BE CAREFUL! Girl...' Without any intention, I spoke to her.

She saw me again and tried to push me... 

I was trying to control my laugh, so I left her shoulders. She ran towards the corridor, and my eyes were following her infact she was nowhere on the scene. 

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I was sitting in the yard of my room. 

Jacky was sleeping in my hands. I was stroking softly on her head which was leaving a tranquilizing sensation on my soul. 

How do I tell everyone that this professor tries to abuse me every day? 

What is my life to me?

Why have these breaths become a punishment for me?

I softly placed Jacky in her small self-made house and came into my room. 

Zabbie came into my room, and sit next to me on the floor. 

'Believe me ... I am not characterless.

It was not my fault in that incident...' She lied her head on Zabbie's shoulder.

'I lost everything in that incident. I also deserve sympathy, but Mamma calls me an insulting piece of this house. 

'IT TAKES TIME TO CREATE YOUR IDENTITY!' 

'I don't have that time, Zabbie...' Whenever I discussed my death phase with myself, I felt the calmness in my heart. 

'MIRHA!' I heard her angry voice.

'We are only here in this world to leave this world!' This is my only principle. 

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I saw those papers again. 

There was nothing wrong written in those papers. 

'Then why was he scolding DURR-E-MIHARA?' I was thinking.

'There is something wrong...' 

(At least DURR-E-MIHARA... you should take up a stand for yourself)

After she left from there...

 I saw towards the pool and sat there just like my legs in the water, and my eyes were on the papers.

(HAHA! I can't drown in the pool just because of a girl) I was laughing about my condition. 

I took help from the university sweeper, and he gave me that wetty papers back. 

'No teacher stands so closer to her student especially when the student is a girl!' 

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This is an artist's old-fashioned territory. 

There are various representations of sketches placed on stands and many frames stuck on the wall. 

I am an expert at presenting someone's eyes without seeing them. I am standing in front of a sketch board, twisting a pencil in my fingers. A Flash of a scene originated in front of my eyes. 

(H_SHEHZAAN aned DURR_E-MIHARA)

'There were many myths buried in her one falling tear!' My eyes were still closed. 

'DURR_E_MIHARA A QUIET GIRL 

H_SHEHZAAN AN ALONE BOY

SHE ENDURED EVERY CRUELTY OF HER

I AM A CHARACTER OF RAISING ON EVERY CRUELTY!' I was comparing myself to her when My eyes suddenly opened to a solution to help her and follow her

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Today I saw her in the cafeteria of the university. I was sitting beside her on the bench. After that incident, I tried to find her in the whole university, but unluckily she was nowhere. 

Maybe she was afraid to come in front of me. 

I could easily see the open waterfall hairs on her back that were covered by a silky sash on her head. I went a bit closer to her.

There was a similar diary in her hand that I saw on the first day. She stood up from the bench. A leaf fell from her diary she didn't notice and went towards the classroom corner. I picked that leaf and went towards her. 

She reached towards a room, saw all around her, and opened the door. 

I was standing at the window just like that day. 

I could easily see what was happening inside. 

Professor threw the copy on the floor and made his footsteps towards that innocent crying girl. 

She stuck to the wall. The professor removed her scarf, and with her firmly holding hair, he pushed her towards the bench.

But before that, she was saved in my powerful hand.

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Professor was seeing me with his criminal eyes. 

He took a step towards me, but my words stopped him.

'SHAME ON YOU. YOUR SOUL AND YOUR HUMANITY DOESN'T SHOUTED WHEN YOU WERE Despoiling AN INNOCENT GIRL.' She tightly held my shirt in her fingers as she was too scared by my loud voice. 

'Stay within your limits! You are my student. Who are you to blame me?' He was hiding his crime. 

There was no stumbling in his tongue that kept shocking.

'ALLAH had sent me to help this girl!' I saw that weeping girl.

I helped her to come out of the room. She separated from me and sat on the floor. 

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There was complete silence in the classroom corner. No one was around us. DURR_E_MIHARA was sitting in the middle of the corner and was crying. 

Even I didn't know that my face was softened with cracks while seeing that girl. 

'TO THIS DAY, THERE IS NO ONE IN THE WORLD FOR WHOM I HAVE SOBBED OR ACHED SO MUCH!'

I was really confused about my thoughts. 

'I LOST MYSELF TO FIND OUT HER ENTITY AND APPEARANCE!

AN UNBLINKING BREATHTAKING EYE GIRL ENDURES CRUELTY ON HERSELF!'  

I was comparing myself to her repeatedly. 

I bent down towards her and sat nearer to her. 

I listened to what she was murmuring to herself.

'S...Should...not...l...live...!'

'S...di...die...Yes...should...I Should die!' He was very shocked. 

She was very helpless in her own matter. 

'DURR_E_MIHARA!' I softly placed my hands on her shoulder. 

She raised her face and saw. 

With a scariness, She moved behind but again slipped.

'Why are you so frightened of everyone?' I finally asked her.

'What happened? You haven't answered me...' I forced her to say something.

'Are you frightened of me too...?' Now I saw directly in her eyes.

'Everyone... She raised her hands and pointed towards the people busy outside.

'Everyone makes me frightened!' She answered me.

I controlled my laughter after seeing her childish expressions. 

'You are a brave girl. Although you know what is right and wrong, you can raise your voice for yourself! 'Never leave your borders in anyone's hands__

Even if it is in the hands of your emotions__

To have a ruler over yourself is to enslave yourself that is wrong effectively__'

 Her expressions were proving that first time in her life, someone has talked about her self-defense.

'No one believes me...' She wiped her tears and placed a stawler on her head to cover her hair. 

'I have hardly got permission from my guardians to come here for continuing my studies. 

I am weak in stats. I tried to take help from other students.

But they ignored me. I was taking help from this professor to overcome my mistakes. He used to take only benefits from myse...' Her tongue flattered, and she started crying.

'You can even take help from your friends too!' There was a strange feeling signed by my heart while talking to her.

'No!' For the first time... I received a direct response from her.

'So everyone will take benefit from you like this...' Although I know that she had no friends, I want her to speak.

'I... I don't have friends!' She raised her eyes and saw me.

'OH! You can take help from me too...'

'Will you be my friend?' She was shocked by my question. In an instant, she stood up and left the corner. 

I smiled at her quick movement foolishly.

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I was observing that pink leaf. The leaf was shining in the gloom. 

A girl was sitting on the pond and watching the sky. 

'DIRTY DOLL (NO ONE LOVES)!' It was the still of the girl drawn on the leaf.

'I don't why I am thinking about you in your absence... But now it's a word to me to make you the strongest girl.

You will only love yourself!' I was sharing with myself. 

Although, I didn't know about her. 

DURR_E-MIHARA will become informal to me one day. 

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